Saturday, January 29, 2011

Surat Dari Kekasih ~

- Khalil Gibran

Untukmu yang selalu Kucintai,
Saat kau bangun di pagi hari, Aku memandangmu dan
berharap engkau akan berbicara kepadaKu., bercerita,
meminta pendapatKu, mengucapkan sesuatu untukKu
walaupun hanya sepatah kata.

Atau berterima kasih kepadaKu atas sesuatu hal yang
indah yang terjadi dalam hidupmu pada tadi malam, kemarin, atau waktu yang lalu….
Tetapi Aku melihat engkau begitu sibuk mempersiapkan diri untuk pergi bekerja…
Tak sedikitpun kau menyedari Aku di dekat mu.

Aku kembali menanti saat engkau sedang bersiap,
Aku tahu akan ada sedikit waktu bagimu untuk berhenti dan menyapaKu, tetapi engkau terlalu sibuk…

Di satu tempat, engkau duduk tanpa melakukan apapun.
Kemudian Aku melihat engkau menggerakkan kakimu.
Aku berfikir engkau akan datang kepadaKu, tetapi engkau
berlari ke telefon dan menelefon seorang teman untuk sekadar berbual-bual.

Aku melihatmu ketika engkau pergi bekerja dan Aku
menanti dengan sabar sepanjang hari. Namun dengan
semua kegiatanmu Aku berfikir engkau terlalu sibuk
untuk mengucapkan sesuatu kepadaKu.

Sebelum makan siang Aku melihatmu memandang ke
sekeliling, mungkin engkau merasa malu untuk berbicara
kepadaKu, itulah sebabnya mengapa engkau tidak
sedikitpun menyapaKu.

Engkau memandang tiga atau empat meja sekitarmu dan
melihat beberapa temanmu berbicara dan menyebut namaKu
dengan lembut sebelum menjamah makanan yang kuberikan,
tetapi engkau tidak melakukannya…..

Ya, tidak mengapa, masih ada waktu yang tersisa dan
Aku masih berharap engkau akan datang kepadaKu,
meskipun saat engkau pulang ke rumah kelihatannya
seakan-akan banyak hal yang harus kau kerjakan.

Setelah tugasmu selesai, engkau menghidupkan TV, Aku
tidak tahu apakah kau suka menonton TV atau tidak,
hanya engkau selalu ke sana dan menghabiskan banyak
waktu setiap hari di depannya, tanpa memikirkan apapun
dan hanya menikmati siaran yang ditampilkan, hingga waktu-
waktu untukKu dilupakan.

Kembali Aku menanti dengan sabar saat engkau menikmati
makananmu tetapi kembali engkau lupa menyebut namaKu
dan berterima kasih atas makanan yang telah Kuberikan.

Saat tidur Kufikir kau merasa terlalu lelah.
Setelah mengucapkan selamat malam kepada keluargamu,
kau melompat ke tempat tidurmu dan tertidur tanpa
sepatahpun namaKu kau sebut. Tidak mengapa kerana mungkin
engkau masih belum menyedari bahawa Aku selalu hadir untukmu.

Aku telah bersabar lebih lama dari yang kau sedari.
Aku bahkan ingin mengajarkan bagaimana bersabar terhadap orang lain. Aku sangat menyayangimu, setiap hari Aku menantikan sepatah kata darimu, ungkapan isi hatimu, namun tak kunjung tiba.

Baiklah….. engkau bangun kembali dan kembali Aku
menanti dengan penuh kasih bahawa hari ini kau akan
memberiKu sedikit waktu untuk menyapaKu…

Tapi yang Kutunggu … ah tak juga kau menyapaKu.
Subuh, Zuhur, Asar, Magrib, Isya dan Subuh lagi
kau masih tidak mempedulikan Aku.

Tak ada sepatah kata, tak ada seucap doa, tak ada
pula harapan dan keinginan untuk sujud kepadaKU….

Apakah salahKu padamu …? Rezeki yang Kulimpahkan,
kesihatan yang Kuberikan, Harta yang Kurelakan, makanan
yang Kuhidangkan , Keselamatan yang Kukurniakan,
kebahagiaan yang Kuanugerahkan, apakah hal itu tidak
membuatmu ingat kepadaKu ???

Percayalah, Aku selalu mengasihimu, dan Aku tetap
berharap suatu saat engkau akan menyapaKu, memohon
perlindunganKu, bersujud menghadapKu … Kembali kepadaKu.

Yang selalu bersamamu setiap saat,
Tuhanmu….

Thursday, January 13, 2011

e world would be a better place without me, and i simply won't allow that

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. And then you die. What's that? A bonus? I think the life-cycle is all backwards. You should die first and get it all over with. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young. You get a gold watch. You go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol and party. You get ready for high school. You go to grade school and become a kid. You play. You have no responsibilities. You become a little baby & go back into the womb. You spend your last nine months floating... Then, you finish off as an orgasm.

I like it. no? =)

-Andy Rooney

An Animated Cartoon Theology:


  • People are animals.
  • The body is mortal and subject to incredible pain.
  • Life is antagonistic to the living.
  • The flesh can be sawed, crushed, frozen, stretched, burned, bombed, and plucked for music.
  • The dumb are abused by the smart and the smart destroyed by their own cunning.
  • The small are tortured by the large and the large destroyed by their own momentum.
  • We are able to walk on air, but only as long as our illusion supports us.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

if atheism is a religion, then not collecting stamps is a hobby.

2011…

Don’t judge maturity based on age. Heh.

So this is a big year for me. I’m in my final year final semester already and this is what going to happen:

1. After grad, am going back to my hometown- Kelantan. Am going to work there. Do my chambering and probably I’ll give myself 2 and half years to save money- this is for the travel-backpack around e world. Mom said its not a good idea as I can do better things rather than wasting my money travelling. Its what she called INVESTMENT.- buy property and extend it. Well her idea of wealth is perfect but ma, this is my life. Its true that I can travel after that which is what? At the age of 28?30? Il be heck busy at that time. And I supposed I wont be this energetic and fun anymore. Plus at that age, am thinking of expanding my business- having my own law firm or working with a bank/ company as a legal advisor (which is : this happen after I do my masters. This would be after the travelling plan.) im going to travel at the age of 25 ½ or early 26. Then proceed doing masters probably in Islamic banking or ooh wait I should talk bout this in point no 2.

2. So ya why proceed to masters 3 years after grad? –because I want to see what the reality is. The market outside there. What do they want? What are they lacking of? I don’t want to study and have no idea what’s going on out there-practically and then il end up doing something that is out of my area. Its such a waste for my brain and time, no? however I have a problem pertaining to this idea. MONEY! How to proceed my studies since i just gt back from travelling around e world?

I came up with another plan:

a) Marriage. Marry me (if u have money to support my studies). –I doubt this going to happen tho.

b) Scholarship from any companies- I don’t have any confidence in this since my vision in applying this is still blur.

: that’s it. The plan- of studies. I guess I have to work my ass off in convincing any companies to support me. I have this idea about investment. Ok note: am speaking from the layman’s point of view. Am not a financier nor a banker ( I never involved in e studies of this area) but what I see is many Muslim countries are extremely rich. But we also know that many Muslim countries and Muslim people are extremely poor. We should really be able to spread the wealth to the poor not just through charity but also through investments. But unfortunately the capacity of Muslims to invest is quite limited. They are short on industrial expertise, particularly manufacturing. When they invest it is often only in property development. These cannot create jobs and the spin-offs are quite limited. Their added value is really artificial, being dependent on speculative demands. The banks should be able to advise their clients on the fragility of such markets. Unfortunately they appear not to have done this.

You know, Islamic banking is everywhere nowadays (in Malaysia) however the scope of it is still limited. True we’re still new and its in e process of developing- e latest project –workpaper is the mega Islamic bank. But irony how I found wholly that almost 300 years passed before the Muslims could think of setting up banks which conforms to Islamic teachings on rejection of interest. By this time the people who invented and utilised the interest-based banking system had drawn far ahead of the Muslim countries in terms of wealth, economic development and military power. Wait I should stop talking about this. Sounds boring to you, no?

3. Oh ya! This final year final semester, I was appointed by my lecturer to be his research assistant in this project about the position of non muslims in Malaysia. Something like that la. So he assigned me to do a research pertaining to the prerogative used of e word Allah by the non muslims in Malaysia. Apparently il gt paid. It’s the university project-they have budget on this. I’m very flattered with his offer and the fact that he has confidence in me.

4. The sad thing about this future plan is- am losing my friends since am going to work in Kelantan. I know friends will always be there but seriously with the new environment and all, how often are we going to keep in touch? This is sad and devastating. Plus its not easy for me to be friends with people. Am crazy but at the same time- who the fuck are you to be friends with me?

Am ego, judgmental and apparently my ex said that a guy needs to have 3 balls to date me. Heh. Haha.

Neway there are so many reasons why I choose to work there. –blablabla its boring. Yawn*

so yeah that’s it. All the best people!

Note: dear God, I hate asking things from you coz I don’t want to bore you with my prayers. The fact that am still alive is appreciated enough. but please let things happen for the best.

and please protect me from your other followers..

Ps: I hope my future clients or my professor wont see the video that I uploaded last night. Hahah I was highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~ oh but wait not more than 10 people know the existence of this blog and who cares?

like a tard, nana nana~

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Rub a dub dub, thanks for the grub- simpson


a true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart...

i can no other answer make, but thanks and thanks.

ps: you know who u are. e owner of leica dlx 5 =)

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Hunger


e child was stalked by the vulture nearby. hes starving to death and the vulture was patiently waiting for e toddler to die so he can have a good meal...

comment: thank you God for this life...

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Facebook by Nigahiga.. hes rufus! =)

PUBLIC PROSECUTOR v ROSLAN BIN IMUN @ MON

This is an old case which took place in 1999. interesting one.

The New Straits Times dated July 14, 1999 carried a front page report and the photograph of the accused with the caption:
"Grass cutter jailed 20 years for causing grievous hurt to school boy."
The Star too in its edition carried the report and the photograph of the accused with an eye catching caption, in its front page:
"Monster jailed."
the popular Malay daily, Utusan Malaysia, in its front page report:

"Bekas banduan sula murid di penjara 20 tahun."

(An ex-convict who impaled student jailed 20 years)

This was a case where the accused, a grass cutter and an ex-convict, who was just released from prison on February 16, 1999 after serving a 20 year jail sentence for raping a minor who subsequently died in 1985 and for that he was charged under section 304 of the Penal Code before the High Court in Muar on October 16, 1985, had the audacity to commit a heinous crime on June 1, 1999 by violently shoving a 60 cm stick up the anus of his victim, a young innocent schoolboy.

It took the doctors 5 1/2 hours to surgically remove the stick from the boy's anus.

The offence was committed on June 1, 1999 at about 5.00 p.m. to 6.00 p.m. along Jalan Tun Ibrahim, Bandar Tenggara, Kota Tinggi. the accused had stopped that schoolboy who was riding his bicycle alone on the pretext of asking for help. At that time, the accused was carrying a sack of durians and he had asked the schoolboy for assistance to transport the durian fruits on the bicycle ridden by the school boy to a nearby bush.. The school boy willingly obliged not knowing what was in store for him. On arrival at the designated place, the accused repeatedly punched the schoolboy until he fell unconscious. Having successfully overpowered the young school boy, the accused then used a 60 cm stick with its leaves and branches protruding and forcefully shoved it into the school boy's anus.

The boy's father had gone out to look for his son when his son did not return home by 6.30 p.m. anaged to trace his son who was at that time lying on the ground with his pants pulled down and the stick was seen protruding from his son's anus with blood oozing out profusely. The medical report showed that 5 cm of the stick was seen protruding out from the schoolboy's anus with minimal bleeding, which by then had dried. The other end of the stick went right up to the surface of the chest skin puncturing the school boy's urinal bladder and rupturing his small and large intestines with severe tears in the anus. Medically speaking there was an anterior anal tear about 1 cm with a perforated urinary bladder at both its anterior and posterior walls.

Judgment: he was sentenced of 20 years' imprisonment and be whipped with 20 strokes of the rattan

comment: e guy should be shoved with the e rattan 20 times instead of being whipped. try that u psiko.

apparently one of the reasons he did the crime is because he wanted to go back to the prison. he claimed the life in the prison is better than outside. so yeah he did that.


ps: this case is dedicated to my best friend - Su Nge Nge Kyaw. =)

this is perfect for me. RUFUS WAINWRIGHT- GOING TO A TOWN


I'm going to a town that has already been burnt down
I'm going to a place that has already been disgraced
I'm gonna see some folks who have already been let down
I'm so tired of America

I'm gonna make it up for all of The Sunday Times
I'm gonna make it up for all of the nursery rhymes
They never really seem to want to tell the truth
I'm so tired of you, America

Making my own way home, ain't gonna be alone
I've got a life to lead, America
I've got a life to lead

Tell me, do you really think you go to hell for having loved?
Tell me, enough of thinking everything that you've done is good
I really need to know, after soaking the body of Jesus Christ in blood
I'm so tired of America

I really need to know
I may just never see you again, or might as well
You took advantage of a world that loved you well
I'm going to a town that has already been burnt down
I'm so tired of you, America

Making my own way home, ain't gonna be alone
I've got a life to lead, America
I've got a life to lead
I got a soul to feed
I got a dream to heed
And that's all I need

Making my own way home, ain't gonna be alone
I'm going to a town
That has already been burnt down

Saturday, November 27, 2010

5 things you really don't need to take a photo of

1.Bathroom or just Mirror Pictures





:seriously?? no other place? camwhore much?

2. KISSING COUPLES



:it's like you want to remind the people that your relationship went really well by posting pictures of you hugging or smashing your lips together like big greasy walruses . Disgusting. i don't find it sweet lah! go get a room! cheap much?

3.CONCERT PHOTOS



: seriously, the concert pictures look like a blurry shit-smear of rainbow sherbet icecream. instead of enjoying the show, donju think you actually spent half the night sticking your crappy camera phone in the air trying to immortalize the moment? heh

4. FOOD PHOTOS


:I know e food at the time looks appetizing and you were hungry- so you think that its picture -worthy ( to take a pic of e food) but donju think its quite forgettable? and can't you just enjoy the food?

5. BAR PHOTOS

:it's like you're trying to show the entire world that your lives are crazy and exotic just because you go to bars and drink cocktails while squealing like slutty orang utans.


notes: you can sue me, but i have the defence of fair comment and your pictures are open to the public. so deal with it bitches.

caution: unauthorized reading could potentially result in harmful side effects such as eye twithing, sudden memory loss, dry mouth and butt acne. thank you for reading this =)

Friday, November 26, 2010

5 things what you need to stop tweet/facebook about:

1. what you are eating
eg:
Johny Bravo i just had mee mamak for breakfast. LOL.

2. the conference or event you are at
eg:
Johny Bravo is attending 'bengkel penulisan ilmiah at Wisma Sejarah'
: seriously, no one outside the conference gives a crap about that

3.about your workout
eg:
Johny bravo i just played futsal 3 hours non stop. another game tonight
:because you're talking about it just to impress people about how active you are.

4.You dont have to talk about your couple, kids, cats, goats, chickens etc
:your spouse or your pet is the world to you but to everyone else: do we look like we care?

5.emotional breakthrough
: i think its funny when someone updates their status with a depressing quote or about something bad happened, and then people like it.
what is more annoying when people tried to show their concern about what had happened, the said person just commented: oh nothing.
this reminds me of a celebrity-he is a person who works hard all of their life to become well known, and then wears dark glasses to avoid being recognized...



Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Busted

it's not that cool neways...

I was in singapore for a few days and i wanted to buy an ipad- to replace my old laptop. the iPad, which is a tablet computer, supposedly a cross between a smartphone and a laptop will apparently make web browsing, email, photo sharing, watching videos, listening to music, playing games and reading ebooks better.
i wanted to buy it since its cheaper than a laptop and its very convenient. however i'm kinda disappointed with it as many basic features are not available on it:

1. no camera: no front-facing camera for video conferencing, no back-facing camera for taking pictures.

2.no phone calls- although it has the cellular networks and a microphone, you cant make phone calls nor sms.

3. no multitasking- you cant listen to the music and facebooking at the same time.

4.no usb port- you cant insert any thumb drive

5. No adobe flash player available.

conclusion: sucks big time. blergh....


Be my master Tyler Burden...


and he said : sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken

what he meant- you cant change who you are by adding things to yourself. you can wear cool clothes and drive a cool car, but remember only the clothes and car are cool. not you. Na-ah.you are still the fucking sucker who paid a fortune for the clothes and car to support the company who sold it to you and owners of the company. for example, if you stay at a 5 star hotel like Hilton, does that make you cool? No. You're a sucker because the money goes to Paris Hilton and her family and others who own the hotel. You are still a 3rd world monkey, working hard so that all the Paris Hiltons of the world don't have to work. Sucker much?

: this is from the movie- Fight club. its an old movie. Watch the film. if you x think it's worth, continue watching Harry Potter, buy the nice car and compete with your friends about how much money you make.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Bitch Fight


Bitches are everywhere these days. so what to do now?
as women gain more equality in the society, so has their belief that they are entitled to a whole lot and more... and that they can get it if they want it. it's a cat-eat-cat world out there and only the bitchiest survives. ( and where are the men in all of this? the answer is: THEY ARE ENJOYING THE SHOW)

today's bitch is more dangerous than ever before. i know someone who i can call her a Bitch Goddess. oh wait i know people. not only one person. heh. so they will crush your spirits, break your will and you'll cry with the sheer force of her words.

you may think that bitches have no friends.- NOT TRUE.
*Bitches make friends best with other bitches (unless they are in competition with them), giving each other group power and collective attitude.*
you may also think the world hates bitches.- NOT TRUE.
*the world loves bitches so long as they don't have anything to do with them directly which is fine by bitches bcoz thats just what they want: to be left pursue their ambitions, to hell with anyone who gets in their way.*

there's not much you can do about them but you can learn how to manage them.

1. Remain CALM at all the times.
Bitches love it when their actions generate emotional responses, (it's part of the reasons why they become bitches anyway. they like DRAMA) they want to see you angry, to see you cry, to see you scream, to see you break. and DONT LET THEM DO THIS.
another trait of a classic bitch is that she's never satisfied with bitching to just one person.-and with your action like this, you'll be left in peace. but beware perhaps she'll be back.

2. Dont let them smell your fear.
most of the bitches stay away from men. bcoz they know from experience that a man still has the more spiteful tongue between the sexes (its true) and can easily turn their bitchiness against them.
Bitches hunt for girls weaker than them. coz every woman's spirit they crush today gives them a a good bitch-boost and makes them feel damn gooooood.

3. Let the bitch have her way
it doesnt mean you're losing. if you don't have a reason to get into a fight with her, why not let her have things her way? besides saving you the stress of a catfight in which you have nothing to win, letting her have her way serves another purpose: it defuses her.
dont you feel like Bitches are immature? and avoid involve in any of their cheap drama.
so ya, why not kick back with the guys and enjoy the show? =)

ps:bitch goddess sounds sexy no? =B

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My playlist -18/11/2010




1. We'll be alright - Travis Mccoy
2. All around the world - Joe Flizzow
3. Medicine - Plies feat Keri Hilson
4. Rocketeer - Far East Movement feat RyanTedder (One Republic)
5. Counting the days- Good Charlotte
6. After midnight (it''ll burn) - Travis McCoy
7. Love is not a competition - Paramore.
8. That look you give that guy - the Eels
9. Act like nothing had happened- Top big bang
10. Your love is a song - switchfoot
11. Dog days are over - Florence and the Machine
and
12. choose you- Stan Walker

i wish boredom and fatness would betray me once in a while...


I use the word "fat." I use that word because that's what people are: they're fat. They're not bulky; they're not large, chunky, hefty or plump. And they're not big-boned. Dinosaurs were big-boned. These people are not overweight: this term somehow implies there is some correct weight... There is no correct weight. Heavy is also a misleading term. An aircraft carrier is heavy; it's not fat. Only people are fat, and that's what fat people are! They're fat! and so do I....

Boredom Buster...




besides gaining weight and watching tv, theres nothing much that i can do at home.- and ya being a maid too,i wish boredom would betray me every once in a while. i need to kill boredom.i gotta man!


anyways, i asked random questions and you know how this works.

here are the couple of questions i asked:

Is he thinking of me now?
Yes

Will i score 3.6 -GPA?
Yes

Am i going to New Zealand?
No.

Am i gonna be a lawyer?
Yes

Oh howabout a Banker?
Yes

Am i getting married at the age of 27?
No.

oh 28?
No.

Then 25?
No.

haish is this true?
Yes.

then is he the one for me?
No.

i have a dream. at the age of 25, i'll achieve it?
Yes


and many more questions...i know its childish or bogus? i dont believe in it. i just want to kill boredom.

i suggest you do e same when you're bored? haha. =)

thanks to Renz.

ps: why the hell did i ask about marriage? well its just for fun.? haha.