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2011…

Don’t judge maturity based on age. Heh.

So this is a big year for me. I’m in my final year final semester already and this is what going to happen:

1. After grad, am going back to my hometown- Kelantan. Am going to work there. Do my chambering and probably I’ll give myself 2 and half years to save money- this is for the travel-backpack around e world. Mom said its not a good idea as I can do better things rather than wasting my money travelling. Its what she called INVESTMENT.- buy property and extend it. Well her idea of wealth is perfect but ma, this is my life. Its true that I can travel after that which is what? At the age of 28?30? Il be heck busy at that time. And I supposed I wont be this energetic and fun anymore. Plus at that age, am thinking of expanding my business- having my own law firm or working with a bank/ company as a legal advisor (which is : this happen after I do my masters. This would be after the travelling plan.) im going to travel at the age of 25 ½ or early 26. Then proceed doing masters probably in Islamic banking or ooh wait I should talk bout this in point no 2.

2. So ya why proceed to masters 3 years after grad? –because I want to see what the reality is. The market outside there. What do they want? What are they lacking of? I don’t want to study and have no idea what’s going on out there-practically and then il end up doing something that is out of my area. Its such a waste for my brain and time, no? however I have a problem pertaining to this idea. MONEY! How to proceed my studies since i just gt back from travelling around e world?

I came up with another plan:

a) Marriage. Marry me (if u have money to support my studies). –I doubt this going to happen tho.

b) Scholarship from any companies- I don’t have any confidence in this since my vision in applying this is still blur.

: that’s it. The plan- of studies. I guess I have to work my ass off in convincing any companies to support me. I have this idea about investment. Ok note: am speaking from the layman’s point of view. Am not a financier nor a banker ( I never involved in e studies of this area) but what I see is many Muslim countries are extremely rich. But we also know that many Muslim countries and Muslim people are extremely poor. We should really be able to spread the wealth to the poor not just through charity but also through investments. But unfortunately the capacity of Muslims to invest is quite limited. They are short on industrial expertise, particularly manufacturing. When they invest it is often only in property development. These cannot create jobs and the spin-offs are quite limited. Their added value is really artificial, being dependent on speculative demands. The banks should be able to advise their clients on the fragility of such markets. Unfortunately they appear not to have done this.

You know, Islamic banking is everywhere nowadays (in Malaysia) however the scope of it is still limited. True we’re still new and its in e process of developing- e latest project –workpaper is the mega Islamic bank. But irony how I found wholly that almost 300 years passed before the Muslims could think of setting up banks which conforms to Islamic teachings on rejection of interest. By this time the people who invented and utilised the interest-based banking system had drawn far ahead of the Muslim countries in terms of wealth, economic development and military power. Wait I should stop talking about this. Sounds boring to you, no?

3. Oh ya! This final year final semester, I was appointed by my lecturer to be his research assistant in this project about the position of non muslims in Malaysia. Something like that la. So he assigned me to do a research pertaining to the prerogative used of e word Allah by the non muslims in Malaysia. Apparently il gt paid. It’s the university project-they have budget on this. I’m very flattered with his offer and the fact that he has confidence in me.

4. The sad thing about this future plan is- am losing my friends since am going to work in Kelantan. I know friends will always be there but seriously with the new environment and all, how often are we going to keep in touch? This is sad and devastating. Plus its not easy for me to be friends with people. Am crazy but at the same time- who the fuck are you to be friends with me?

Am ego, judgmental and apparently my ex said that a guy needs to have 3 balls to date me. Heh. Haha.

Neway there are so many reasons why I choose to work there. –blablabla its boring. Yawn*

so yeah that’s it. All the best people!

Note: dear God, I hate asking things from you coz I don’t want to bore you with my prayers. The fact that am still alive is appreciated enough. but please let things happen for the best.

and please protect me from your other followers..

Ps: I hope my future clients or my professor wont see the video that I uploaded last night. Hahah I was highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~ oh but wait not more than 10 people know the existence of this blog and who cares?